Wow that was a long time ago. I can’t even really remember 13. No joke. Hm.
Ok, I know you just started home-schooling and don’t worry, it doesn’t mean you’re going to become a social hermit. The friends you keep will be friends you still have today, even if you don’t talk much. You’re going to move in a few years and even though you will be miserable at first, it’s a good move. Somewhere down the road, you’ll reconnect with the others and it’s amazing to see where they all are in their lives (married with kids, which is shocking for some of them). The friends you make and lose along the way were not worth the trouble anyway no matter how much losing them might sting. The best friends you have now are best friends who will be part of your life forever. You hated them at first but those were good bitches. You’re gonna love them, I swear. One of them will even be your BSB date to all their concerts. No joke! The other one might just introduce you to someone special.
Don’t worry about boys and dating so much right now. It’s not important for a while, trust me. You will make at least three big dating mistakes in your life and they will take a lot out of you. One of them will become an unexpected friend later in life and one of them will just provide the closure you need to move on and find a good guy. The other, well, he was really just a speed bump and you figured that out fast. Good for you! You’re going to get hurt a lot and at times you won’t feel like you’ll ever meet anyone but you’re wrong. You’ll meet lots of someones.
You’re not good at dating around but it will provide you with new friends and funny life stories. Don’t be afraid to try new things and talk to people. You’re now 28 and no, you’re not married but you aren’t single either. The guy you’re dating isn’t at all what you expected but don’t worry, he’s amazing and handsome and funny and he makes you smile. You met him in an unexpected place at an unexpected time so no, he isn’t any of the people running through your head right now.
But that is a really good thing.
Don’t stress about what you want to do with your life, enjoy it. You’ll figure it out when you’re ready. You’re going to travel a lot and meet cool people and have a lot of fun when you’re old enough to appreciate and understand it better. Your life is actually way cooler than you thought it would be (but no, you are not a pop star or a fashion designer and you won’t marry Justin Timberlake). Embrace the country music and dirt roads around you. That sounds weird but trust me, it’ll make sense one day. You’re not staying here forever so enjoy the quiet lifestyle as much as you can. You will miss it so much in ten years.
P.S. Stop being a prude about tattoos. You will understand in eight years.
P.P.S. Yes, you will meet the Backstreet Boys, okay?